Precursor to a Lifelong Eating Disorder
sixteen teetering on platform heels
designer dresses shoes luggage jewelry
your hair is the ticket don’t dare cut it
you can’t wear that shitty black eyeliner
stay bone thin at all costs step on the scale
in a crowded room holding your breath
be prepared to take your top off without warning
do not complain you’ll be replaced in an instant
only thinking of a sweet-talking-god you can’t help
but worship or sometimes slumming it
with crushed Dexedrine instead on particularly
bad days a visit to Veniero's for your favorite cookies
lined up on a white porcelain plate separated
by size color flavor the sacrifice of a liquid diet
for the next 10 days don’t bother opening your mouth
or thinking too much just stand there and look pretty
Beth Dulin’s writing has been published in Atlanta Review, Gargoyle, Little Patuxent Review, New York Quarterly, and Wigleaf, among many others. She is the author of Truce, a limited-edition artists’ book, in the collections of the Brooklyn Museum and the Museum of Modern Art. A graduate of The New School, she lives on the Eastern Shore of Maryland. Visit her online: https://www.bethdulin.com
Beth Dulin