Take this as you like
Jen Hallaman
Here he is
on top of a mountain
followed me past jagged rocks
& knotted ancient roots
I set the pace I noticed
every weed & wildflower
along the way
he pointed out a sprig of chicory
orphaned at the trail’s brim
periwinkle, sun-starved
he said it was pretty
I noticed he sees
what he wants to
Here he is
squatting on a blue plastic stool
back damp with rain
I’m safe beneath the overhang
I could live here, he says
he thinks he’s fallen in love
with cheap beer
rich broth bright with mint
city backdrop blurred by rain
moped traffic twinkles
salt spreads soft across my tongue
doubt tastes the same as truth
I can’t live in Hanoi
forever I could stay
on this wet plastic stool
next to you
Here we are
swimming in the pool
of light that married us
reprieved from eight pandemic
months of roaring silence
not between the two of us
but us two & the shattered world
Here we
remember music: ripple of water
yawn of morning breeze
evening wind’s terse sigh
Here he
unearths my secrets
peels them away
like dead skin
I planted them on purpose
left them sprouting
from the fringes of my limbs
obvious
as orphaned chicory
hoping that he’d see
Here we are
squinting through prism glass
searching for the mountain light
that followed us
but often slips
away behind these endless
rows of houses
here no
purple flowers
dot the yard
here
he’ll assure me
here we are
meant to be
I could learn
to see what I want
to see
Jen Hallaman is a writer and marketing professional living in Washington, DC with her husband and two cats, Zeus and Apollo. She spends her free time hiking and perusing the fiction section at the bookshop where she works. Her short story 'Smoked Paprika' was published in Creative Loafing Atlanta, and her personal essay 'Lessons in Girlhood' won an Honorable Mention in the Peauxdunque Review's 2022 Words and Music competition.